Sometimes I just want to disappear
Just stop existing or go somewhere
In a place where my illness is not haunting me
Where my brain can be free
Sometimes I wish I could just take out my illness as if it was a little chip
or maybe sometimes I wish there was a cure
A cure for this thing that turns my life upside down
Sometimes disappearing seems like the only answer
But by disappearing I don’t mean death
I just wish I could just go to a magic place for a while where there are no illnesses
Where I don’t have to take 7 pills a day and make sure I don’t miss my weekly therapy appointments
and I can sleep without needing medicine to help me fall asleep
A place where I can experience and feel what’s a life without a disorder like
A place where I can be just like everyone else.
- Camila Sosa
I wrote this poem to describe all the times I'm too tired for any reason, having to deal with a disorder is not easy. The days where where my brain knows I'm physically and mentally tired but there comes my disorder and decides to play tricks on me. Making me feel hopeless and begin wishing that I didn't have this monster in my head.
